I
did not expect our topic last night would make me worry for her this much—also
made me angry for a person I do not even know personally (and if I do, heavens
forbid what I could do).
I
called my friend out of boredom and we first talked about wattpad, songs,
icebreakers, and job seeking. After a while, the subject got serious when
I opened something about what she told me last time—I said I was curious what
happened to her and to her friend-slash-lover-slash-assumer, why she decided
not to entertain him anymore, and why she’s already keeping distance to him.
She hesitated at first but then she confessed something I have not thought for
once.
*****
One
night, the latest incident, she attended a slumber party with friends in one of
their friend’s boarding house. It wasn’t really a party at all, just a
gathering with some old colleagues inside one of the rooms. There, also, was
her “friend” [let us call him her “friend”, with (“ ”)]. While all of
them were just talking, enjoying the matters, suddenly her pervert “friend”
leaned forward toward her and attempted to kiss her lips, but she covered them
before they hit his. This maniac made his way to her cheeks down to her
neck instead even though she was already edging movements to
avoid him. This man did not stop his attempts and made his hands
maliciously caress around her sensitive parts. She startled
but abled to push the guy away. She slapped him then cried as she hurriedly
left the room.
I
squeezed information further. I have discovered that it was not the first
time she was harassed by this erotic guy. There was one time when she was
taking a bath, the lights went out (she knew someone turned it off) and she was
late to realize that she forgot to lock the door. Someone entered—her “friend”.
This maniac said something like, “Kita lang diri. Ano, gusto mo himuon
ta?” (It’s just the two of us here. You want to do it?).
She cried aloud and her board-mates ran toward the room.
Immediately, the maniac went out of the bathroom leaving her still
startling. Her other male board-mates scolded her “friend”. He said
he was just making fun of her… and the fuss just ended there (I could not
believe how it just ended there!).
Once,
while she was studying, she heard someone sniffing. She glanced under the
table and found out that it was her itchy “friend” smelling in between her legs
almost touching his nose to her thing. He just laughed and said it smelled
like citrus.
There
was a time that her roommates asked her “wala ka may nabatyagan?” (haven’t you
felt anything?). They said that there were times that the guy was
touching her parts while she was sleeping. My friend
left the issue undisclosed hoping that a change on him would somehow happen.
One
day, she was on her bed. His “friend”, who had just finished bathing,
walked near her. He almost flashed his part in front of
her but my friend managed to close her eyes. Her lewd “friend” forcedly
held her hand wanting it to touch his part, but she vigorously
compelled—then he stopped, without any traces of shame on his face.
These
mentioned are just some of what this lewd ill-mannered person did to her but
these are more than enough for an elaboration to make me disgust for this guy.
*****
Know
that this debauched pervert was always saying apologies after doing those
things [or better say, after failing to do his malicious intents] and his only
excuse was that he was just making fun of her (talk to the marines, man!).
Know also that she was always [very] angry every time he was doing
those to her, BUT she was always forgiving him for the grounds that they are
friends and she loves him. Yes, she loves him—I never
believed that love could make a person stupid, not until I heard all these.
How unfortunate she is to fall for a libidinous person who knows nothing
but carnally molest and take advantage over her knowing that she fancies
him. What I hate most is that, all this time, he pretends to
be a gay (what the… for once, I wish I had an extensive vocab of bad words!).
One
miserable part is, their board-mates hadn’t said anything to rebuke the guy
because they supported their tandem. Maybe it is just
normal for her board-mates to see those malicious gestures. I bet they all have
experiences, but still they should be sensitive enough not to tolerate the
guy’s lasciviousness. This is not about open-mindedness—this is about
respect.
In
their case, the guy doesn’t have the right to touch her—they’re not even in a
relationship. This pervert just assumed carnal affection and as I said
earlier, he was just taking advantage—such a douchebag! My friend is
admittedly still not ready for any intimate relationship and of course, also
not for make-outs.
*****
Best
thing I admire about her is that she never gave in to the lure of the
situations. It somehow eased my worries when she said that the guy never
got her all the way.
Before
we almost ended our talk, she asked me one thing; what if he comes
back, asks forgiveness, and offers friendship again, should she accept
it?
*****
Dear friend,
If you read this, know that it hurts me to write all these. I just could not contain my worries and rage that even my tears could not alleviate them—so came the writing. It hurts me to imagine what you had been through all this months, years, and I didn’t even know all about these until just last night. The one I care for was being abused then what do you expect me to react huh? Does he know you?! Does he feel what you feel?! Does he love you the way I [we] do?! NO! Of all the trust you gave to him, he just reciprocated you indecency. Believe me, he doesn’t understand you. I don’t care if he’s your first love—if it never dies, bury it alive as some say. He doesn’t appreciate your feelings—for most, he doesn’t even know how to respect you as a friend, as a lady, as a sister, as a human. You are not a toy… you are not a pig! So many other persons love you unconditionally. YOU DON’T NEED HIM!
Take care, please—at least not for me or for other people, but for yourself.
May 12, 2014
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