Unfollow, Unfriend, Block

After graduation, I decided to unfollow, unfriend, and/or block some of my “friends” in Facebook. 

The reason is that I want to forget the people who gave me bad vibes and bad perspectives in life—not as simple as in Facebook but in my life. I also want them to forget me.  When I don’t see or remember them, only then can I find peace.

Crude to say but when I entered college, I promised myself not to invest too much attachment to people. I also don’t like familiarity. People will presume they know you but they don’t.

Some, obviously insecure about their incompetency just throw dirt on you and the worst part, others believe them.

Oftentimes, no matter how hard you try to be good, the things that stay to them are the worst things in you.  No matter how hard you change [if there’s anything to change], they keep on reminding you what they thought of you—a judgment long been rebutted and I hate it when it reverberates in my mind. I don’t like explaining. Some people won’t just understand until you tell them anything and that makes you very transparent then cursing yourself for the same reason.

It’s as if the simple description “unsociable” becomes a sensational big issue to all. You just say something once, and every inch of what you say the next will be judged against you.

I have not “unfriended” some of the friends I described just because they were my classmates since high school.

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I am always left behind. Yes; but I am not alone—I don’t feel alone. I was only trained to focus on the things that mean to me the most.  I don’t have anyone to talk to about music, psychology, photography, or pets but I get friends when I have money or when I talk about people. However, I often don’t have much and I hate talking about people as much as I hate people talking about me.

In college, some of my friends share their secrets to me and I built a reputation for that but I admit when I was younger, I could not keep light secret [note: just the light ones].

I exist, but I exist mainly for my family and myself only.  I socialize, but I don’t like noise. I also don’t want to be a burden to anyone that’s why I don’t do things beyond my limitations.

Lastly, I don’t force anyone to like me, as what I have said, I don’t invest too much attachment. Forget me, notify me first, and I’ll also forget you.