Why not?

They asked me why had I not attended this year’s annual JPIA acquaintance party—thankful somehow that at least some bothered to ask.  Yet, I could not tell my reasons because I myself could not put into words what I wanted to say, to reason out.  Perhaps what I think about parties is different from them and that they will not understand me if I speak my truth.

Now, I will try to write what my heart speaks—as always.

The reason why my friends attended acquaintance party was that this year is their last year in college.  Yes, they wanted to cherish the moment and that is normal.  Some told me that at least in their last year, I could join them celebrate acquaintance party.  However, I am not good in group sentiments. I would rather keep my emotions to myself and write.

For me, parties like this are very deceiving.  Of course, we expect to see smiles—happiness and enjoyment.  These are not the real things.  Memories are not always with smiles showing how important your friends are in a night of enjoyment.  Will this one night of happiness replace the five years of nostalgic experiences that were far better worth cherishing?

Others think that they are nothing to me but it is the complete opposite.  I am nothing to them.  Yet, every moment from the time when we started being classmates all marked in me.  There were times of misunderstandings and selfishness but more were times of acceptance, friendship, and empathy.  Whatever those may be, I know, deep in my heart, that nothing will I ever forget—for everything, I know, helped me become who I am.