You. You. You. by Kreyan

You are the apple of my eye
The mango to my pie
The because of my whys
And the one I’ll never say goodbye

Pero syempre joke lang ito bay
Malayong-malayo pa siguro tayo sa ganitong lagay
Kaya sa ngayon eto muna ang sayo'y aking maibibigay
Tugon sa hiling mong tula na sa iyo’y aking mai-aalay

Palagay ang loob ko sa iyo , di natin ‘yon maitatanggi
Para tayong pinagbiyak na bunga na pagkalakilaki (hahaha)
Madalas tayong nagkakaintindihan sa mga bagay na ating napaguusapan
Pareho pa tayo ng mga hilig nako meant to be nga naman… (lol)

Marami tayong pagkakatulad sa kahit anung larangan
Feeling ko nga pinagtagpo talaga tayo ni Lord para ako ay iyong ingatan
Ingatan lang pagkat di naman ako kailangang alagaan pa
Okay na sa’kin yung nanjan ka pag kailangan kita kahit bigla ka din namang nawawala

Para sa’kin ikaw yung tipikal na pwedeng guy best friend ko
Siguro nga close friend ka ng lahat kasi naman ang bait mo
Hindi mali, di ka mabait, approchable ka lang
Madalas ikaw pa yung nang aaproach kung kani kanino na lang

Palakaibigan ka lang siguro talaga and the heart to listen was there
The heart to listen was there even if you really didn’t care (haha)
Ang tanging pakay mo lang naman talaga ay ang makitsismis at makinig
At yung last part lang ang nakikita ng tao kaya sayo sila’y napapalapit

I understand that you are a witty person
Sa lahat at ano mang bagay ikaw ang may explinasyon
Sometimes I just don’t get what you try to make me understand
Pero umaakto akong nakakaintindi para matapos na ang usapan

Alam mo ba, if you don’t look like the way you look like now
And I don’t look like the way I look like now, I might like the thought of liking you?
Kanina ko lang naisip to kaya pagbigyan mo na ako
Nagrarhyme naman diba ‘tamo?
Ah basta pwede, baka , cguro, malamang balang araw, oo.
Basta sa ngayon, di ko pa alam, wala pa ako sa sarili ko, alam mo naman diba kung bakit bro?

Nakakatawa pero naisip ko din kanina
Na baka ikaw lang balang araw ang aking pag-asa
Pag naisipan kong tumungo sa tuwid na daan, gets mo naman diba? (haha)
Alam mo na ang ibig kong sabihin sa straight line oha?
Ah basta ang importante nanjan ka, tapos! wala ka ng magagawa..haha

Ikaw yung isa sa iilang tao na nakakakilala sa totoong ako
Di man tayo nagkikita alam kong naiintindihan mo ako
Alam ko na sa bawat pighati at saya ko, ramdam mo ako
Salamat kasi di mo’ko iniwan kahit nalaman mo ang totoo

Salamat sa pagtanggap sa’kin ng buong-buo
Salamat kasi mas pinili mong umintindi kesa husgahan ako
Salamat kasi madalas napapadama mo sa’kin na nanjan ka pag kailangan kita
Salamat kasi kakuntsaba kita sa mga kalokohan ko, ikaw na talaga...haha

Oh tama na masyado kanang natutuwa iho
Baka mainlove kana sa’kin nyan, wag muna jusko
Kailangan ko na munang tapusin to pagkat ako’y matutulog na
Salamat sa pagkakaibigan, wag mo’ko iiwan ha?

Good Old Magic Balls

I found a jar of magic balls in my old cabinet.  I remembered these were the collections of my sister when she was in high school.  She was fond of this collection believing these would multiply after soaking into the water. Unsurprisingly, it did not.

Well, I was thinking of making these balls a little interesting to look at so I came up taking pictures of these in different angles and compositions. Let's see what these turned out.

The balls turned out to be a good monitor wallpaper. Many said I did great and they like my shots.  What can you say?

Deconstruction Turned Epigram Construction

“…forget the old self and try to move forward and enjoy life.” – Pherry

"...never give up, and through it all, just stand up." - Janmarie

"...the sun is still shining." - Feanna

“…emotion sets the picture next to perfection” – Princess

"...sometimes shadows can conceal what light always reveals." - Angelita

"...we may be surrounded by darkness but if we just try to look around, there could be life." - Gemmema

"...that when life seems to be hard, just lift up your face and see the hope the light gives you." - Katherine

“…there is hope after despair and many suns after darkness” – Mary Joy

“…there's more to it than meets the eye.” – Alyyanna

“…there will always be a tomorrow to look forward to.” – Deo

“…despite of our miseries, struggles and sufferings today, there is hope that tomorrow will be another and a better day.” – Chen

“…life has never been meaningless even in the midst of darkness and tragedy.” – Lebirose

"...even if one feels that there is no chance for a change, there will always be a bit of hope that one could grasp or hold on to." - Janine

“…tulong na kinakailangan nya para umangat sa buhay at harapin ang bukas—sa madaling salita, PAG-ASA.” – Nathan

“…amidst darkness, suffering and the pressure of life that sometimes pushes us to curl and bend, if only we lift our heads, we can see the light that hovers above us.” – Kirsten

“…in every lonesome experience that we encounter, always expect that there is hope until there is life.” – Jeyvee

“…though we face hardships and we face darkness in our lives, there's always light that gives us hope that everything will be all right.” – Shane Jean

"...for as long as we live, we try to make the most out of what we can because that’s what matters most." - Honey

"...people usually are busy beautifying those areas in their life where everyone can see it, while great deprivation exist in those hidden areas that supposedly be the core of the entirety." - Shing

The Fall by Jenevie

This time, I will write a story
Something about love, something about you and me
I know it sounds so strange to be writing this one
But I will write about it coz I want to remember how it's done

The first time I saw you meant really nothing at all
But we became friends and that's when I knew I fall
There's just something in you that would make me forgot everything
Something that made me realize I was feeling this whole "LOVE " thing

We used to walk on the corridor side by side 
People were watching and I used to have this pride
Because someone like you walked with someone like me
Someone like you who, we knew, have been liked by many

You are someone everybody would fall for, its true
Pretty handsome, pretty cute, pretty kind and pretty cool
Smart, confident, strong and way far from being cruel
Too good to be true but baby its really you

You were the reason I smiled out of the blue
Why my heart burst out of happiness knowing I had you
Why I got plenty of chills whenever you were near
And why my world tend to stop when you disappeared

You are someone I wanna walk with everyday
Someone who would hold my hand when I thank God and pray
Someone I thought would never leave me alone
Who would take me to places I've never known

All those memories I've had with you
Were one of the best and you know its true
All the laughters and stories shared
Made me love you even more, I swear

I don't know how to end this and I don't want too
Coz honestly, I'm still hoping it would be me and you
That someday we would bump into each other and recall
The smiles, the laughter's, the love I've had for you and the FALL.

Depression

"Depression" is so underrated.

Do you have any idea what it’s like to not want to get out of the bed every morning, not wanting to go and deal with all the bullshit outside your room? Do you even know what it feels like to feel completely alone while you know there are millions of miserable people just like you? How about what it’s like to be completely repulsed by things you used to love?  To feel completely lost in the dark and not really knowing if there’s way out? To not have the strength to feel like you can make it through the whole day, let alone the next one, without breaking down? To not be able to explain how you feel at all? To have everyone constantly asking if you’re okay until it gets to a point where no one asks, making you wonder if they don’t notice or just don’t care?  To have no energy or drive to do anything? To feel completely worthless? To hate who you are and how you look? To feel like you have control over nothing? To know you don’t belong? To feel trapped inside a world full of ugly things but being scared of what's on the other side? To be hurting constantly? To know there’s no one to save you from the way you feel?  To know the only one who’s really hurting you is yourself?

[I got this from an online course in psychology.]

A Better Left Unspoken Feeling

When I see you, the world stops

—my world stops.

It stops and all that exists for me is you

and my eyes staring at you,

nothing else:

no noise, no thoughts, no worries,

no yesterdays, no tomorrow.

I see that my world is a beautiful place…

and it's becoming more beautiful 

every time I see you."

Twenty-five Sprinkles of a Familiar Unforgotten Feeling

1. I was already inside the jeep when she walked toward us.
2. She entered the jeep and all I could see was her entering the jeep—nothing else.
3. She sat down nine seats away and did not notice me at first.
4. I was looking at her the whole time.
5. Then, for the first time, she saw me staring at her.
6. Our eyes met and it felt like the world stopped.
7. Her eyes glittered and I wished she could not see the obvious spark in my eyes.
8. She smiled and waved hello. 
9. I replied a smile and a friendly nod.
10. I pretended I was doing something with my phone to break the aura of her and me.
11. After a while, I started looking at her once more.
12. To my surprise, for the second time, she again noticed me staring at her.
13. Then, she enthusiastically said that their theater play would be next week.
14. I asked the title of their play.
15. She said the title but I could not hear it nor could I read her lips.
16. She said better if I look into their tarp next time I drop by.
17. I still could not hear her but her lips told me so.
18. I eagerly nodded and said thanks.
19. She noticed that she already reached her place.
20. She walked toward the door and everything was in slow motion.
21. Then she stopped in front of me.
22. She tapped my knee, smiled, and said goodbye.
23. I smiled and uttered my response but she already walked past me.
24. But I know she heard me.
25. And she smiled walking away.

"Do you [I] exist?"

The feeling that you do not exist
Is the most hurting feeling you could bear
In your school, your workplace, even in your home

The feeling of not being recognized
Is the worst feeling you could feel
Even if you're humble enough to accept it

The eyes that look you in disgust
How you wish not to feel these
But you can’t help but notice…