Stupid Me

You were the reason for my poems,
no… you were the poems.
I have lost you years ago
But after I heard you and that guy
were over now,
I began writing poems again
for no reason.
No… I have... YOU.
You are still my poetry
And I hate myself
For not really moving on;
for not forgetting;
For not getting you off my mind
completely.

"Would You?" by Kreyan

If I tell you how much you mean to me, would you believe me?
That I want to be with you most of the time, I just couldn't tell you.
I just couldn't let you know for I fear what I foresee
I fear the thought of you ignoring me.

If I tell you I still like you, would we stay the same? Would you?
I have always been wanting some attention from you, but I see no interest, nothing to argue.
I am waiting for the day when you would finally say “good morning” first,
Ask me how I am, until we reach the “good night” and “sweet dreams” one.

You have no idea how much I’ve been wanting long conversations with you
I know I can't demand, I don't have the right to
And this is what I’m terrified about, now I’m telling you I’m afraid
I can’t help myself but fall, its cliché but it’s true.

It’s been troubling me for days; this thing I have for you
I am afraid of letting you know because I know you don’t feel the same way too But I want to take this move to be able to free myself
Of the consequence of silent kill when feelings are deepened and kept

You have no idea how freakin' scared I am
I've written so many poems like this, but I have never been this nervous
Thoughts have been so unorganized, rumbling on my mind, they won’t collide Been really wondering how am I going to make things right

If I tell you I want to take care of you, would you allow me?
I have been wanting to scold you whenever you're being stubborn and mean
I want to make you feel how special you are, and it wouldn't be temporary
Coz you deserve all the love that last, that would break all your walls of superiority

I want to be your pillow to hold on tight
Shoulder that you'd need when you feel like crying
I want to be your best friend, someone who'd matter in your life
I want to be that someone you would love to be by your side

Well,
All I really want to say is that I would love to love you
And when I say love, everything, good or bad, comes with it too
I am just here to make you feel how special you are to me
Someone I would cherish and respect, if only you'd allow me.

-Kreyan-