After a day of meditation [of sleeping] and of going to church, I have pondered and found reasons: reasons why I was so depressed and reasons why I should not be, as well as, reasons why I should be satisfied about this mock board exam results.
The following explains why I should be happy:
1. I got my lowest grade from P2. I don’t have P2 anymore, and indeed I already got a good grade from it last year.
2. My second lowest is P1. We had an agreement with sir that regardless of the score, the INC completion will be perfected after the results. And if so, I have TOA to mitigate my loss in P1.
3. I answered the exam without copying, sharing or cheating. [except Tax #1 question]
4. I did it without relying on the National Mockboard Exam Handouts.
5. I top Auditing Theory and Taxation.
6. MAS will not be credited to FS anymore.
7. Our professor in Audit Problems will not base his grade in mock-board.
8. I tracked my graded in BLT, I still passed given my grades in Midterm, mock-board, 30% perfect quizzes, and 10% bonus.
9. I am good in many things. This one examination will not ruin my future, of course.
The question bothering me was why am I so affected with the very low average? Perhaps, the reasons are as follows:
1. Comparison. I may be so sad because I was the only one in our circle of friends to be in a rank outside 25. But my maxim—desiderata—tells “…do not compare yourself with others: you may become vein or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.” So as a resolution, I compare myself with myself, realizing I have so much more to workout with my performance.
2. Pride[?][.] Maybe, I’m stressed to know that I got a low rank, still compared to others. [back to number 1]. My resolution is that, I may not have had a higher rank, I still believe that there is so much dignity to myself not to rely to anyone except to myself and to my God.
3. I am one of the lowest in Audit Problems. My ego struck me. [back to number 2]
4. Regrets. I have not studied P2, MAS, and P1. This I believe should not be an issue, because those subjects are already secured. [haha]
Well, past is past. I have to move forward and forget my pride—I shouldn’t have one on the first place.
This is what I get when I don’t have anyone to talk to except to myself. Indeed, it pays to meditate for your dramas sometimes.
