Here is for Herra: a heart
full of love and a life that shines!
Before I start any of these,
bottom-line first in case you mind reading the rest, I just want to greet you
happy birthday and I wish you the best things always.
I will try a relatively long
composition for you to feel some drama if not annoyance a bit (haha). Do
not get too excited, I wrote this for fun. Nevertheless, of course even
so, I still spent my heartfelt love and effort to this one. To be honest
with you I did not know how to start a message simply because when I
considered you as the addressee of this letter, I could not ponder
exact English words to strike you to the bones, bisaya man gud kaayo
kag nawong, pero pang international man ang beauty (pambawi oh diba!).
I thought of starting this by reminiscing
back when I first noticed you. Here we go:
The first semester of our
first year was that awkward period where everybody was in the
getting-to-know-each-other stage. That was the very moment where all felt a
dose of agog at the new twist of getting in touch with one another (not all
felt that way but that is how I described it). The breeze was new to us
then; it felt like every one of us still observing anybody thinking and
listening to the guts of who’s who to be potential threats and potential
comrades. Of course, everybody had an old friend; could be high school
classmates, schoolmates, or longtime friends. Some were easy to be with but
others were hard enough. I did not notice you at first because you were
not that noticeable kind of person but I was interested with you because I knew
you were from our municipality also (even though until now, I do not like the
school where you graduated high school). Well that was it; we became
friends but not close.
In partnership and corporation
class, we were having our recitation. It wasn’t like a typical recitation
at all: Sir was boring, the weather was humid or say hot enough to make
us roast to the skin, and the scene was like an old Filipino-Hispanic age where
everybody got to sit inside a quiet four corners doing nothing, not even
listening to who’s reciting and then doing own stuffs as if no class going at
all; just a waste of time to be exact—no offense to Mr. S. Then you
raised your hand when Mr. S told that he would give additional points to anyone
who would answer the next requirement. There you were, so eager that
caught his attention and then… you stood up. You were sexy. You
were wearing a maroon, red, and violet mixed in diagonal stripes. It was
hot… You were hot. There was something different in you that day;
well I knew it was not the I-am-well-prepared feeling because honestly I rarely
saw you that time really prepared for anything (peace). You thumbed your
hair and looked pretty trying to catch the eyes of Sir with your smile but I
was not thinking that time that you were trying to seduce him; it is just that
I thought you had that special talent of making other people feel extra
rush. Well, it sounds like I was the one who was seduced. It was
weird then. You were not my type that time. In addition, you even do not
have a good voice. Moreover, I thought you were obnoxious… but as time
goes by, I learned to like you (as a friend).
After partnership and
corporation and all that tragedy, our class was split almost to half. There
was a communication blur to some, including our communication but not that
bad. You had your whole time in your new world as well as mine. You
made your own circle of friends (if I am not mistaken it is called kabagangs). As
the years stirred up, I did not notice that many had changed…
All I could remember rightly
after that was the latest event happened in your life—the pageant things.
This I thought was the major break in your collage life inside the
campus. You know, you were asked to join some small-scale to large-scale
stage work representing our year and to the point of representing our
department. That time I really appreciated when you told me to help you
at some aspects. I really tried my best to help you and sorry if you
felt unsatisfied. By that happening, I thought our bond became tighter and that
time I saw something in you different from what I used to see. I saw a
more humble, innocent, and delicate human. In addition, I saw that the
more you are into tough times, the more you became stronger; yet still you
maintain your feet on the ground. It is more like I saw you as a baby who
was so enthusiastic to learn and prove to the world that a little voice can do
great things. On those gestures, I was proud of you. I was
excessively happy and excited when I saw you walking, posing, and projecting up
on stage (and I was too concerned about how they dressed you like that…hmmp).
You may wonder why I am
telling you all these matters. Well, wonder no more. I just want to
make it clear that you are not the type of girl who is easily forgotten by
persons like me; that every moment with you is like treasures that no one can
get from me. I just want you to know how special you are to me and how
thankful I am to be part of your life.
I may sound bitter to you
oftentimes but it was not for you but for me. Why? Because I admit there were
times that I got attracted to you so badly (not obsessed, it’s different
thing); how terrible it was. It remained in the commotion that I only
wanted to be your friend but I looked stupid when I got jealous to your
textmates (see, how stupid it was? And I knew you knew) and I did
not have the right to be jealous about that, we are friends and I need to
be happy to where you stand.
As time gone by, being bitter
to you felt better to me. I forgot all the infatuations I felt for
you. And now the therapy is terminated. Congratulations to me, I
surpassed that crisis in my life. I will open a new chapter in your life
where you can see me guiding you behind through tough dilemmas… Better
that way where no more personal things going on… (I would rather say the
awkward words that lose you, or for love to fade before it could come true.)
There is something I want you
to be aware of, it is your being a men-magnet. I am not against your
actions (that is your happiness) but I just want you to be extra careful; and I
trust in you, I know you have enough respect for yourself. Stay being a
nice person and change your study habits a bit. Invest more in reading
your books than your cellphone. Be a good example to others. I loved you,
I love you, and I will always love you.
This does not sound dramatic to me but sure, this is relatively
long. I am being honest and I want to grab this opportunity to say what I
want to say (If you have clarifications, expect me to answer my favorite word,
“secret”.haha).